Moody momment :(

Days after pass final examination.. my mood went drop rapidly.. i have done well on other subjects except for business accounting.. i screw that sub.. and i screw that stupid pass year question.. din really help at all.. i was damn afraid that i will fail my accounting... failing the sub is not what's important.. the thing is if my gpa don pass 2.0.. my ptptn loan will be terminated.. this is because my gpa didn't pass 2 for the previous semester also.. Many of my friends were cheering my off.. they say the result is not out yet.. why do u giving up so fast? lets just wait the result out only decide la~~.. But i was the one answering the question.. So i can estimate the score for it.. After the exam, everyone is starting to pack their stuff and going to return to their hometown soon.. I tell my friends that this may be my last semester with u guys here.. take care.. and i promise them that i will treat them all a dinner if i really get to pass my exam..

Few days later, I went home for the break, and there were some outing that i have been doing with my hometown friends. Cant really enjoy much, i was always thinking about the examination stuff.. I mean not that i wanna thing about it.. Its just that stupid feeling keep appearing on my mind.. Every night i can't sleep well and i can't stop thinking about it.. i keep on thinking about my future. If i really get drop out from my university, what will my live be? how will my relative look on me? What they will say about me? A person that waste so much money to study and get nothing in exchange? i hate it, i hate to thinking about it, but what if that really happen to me? Every night when i am alone, this feeling will keep on appearing on my mind, i am very frustrating... I wish this can end fast, i really wish that i could pass so that i can continue study with my friends.. God, Please Give let me pass all my subjects...